Shawn Groves wrote a wonderful little song called “Twilight.” Here part of the lyric:
Oh Lord, paint my heart a solid hue the shade of You
Oh Lord, break this dreadful in between inside of me
Oh let it be morning.
“This dreadful in between” is me today. I’m between…
- careers
- homes
- number of children (we’re expecting kid #3)
- the institutional church and the church to come
And, quite frankly, I wasn’t completely prepared for this. I attended church for several years longing for something more authentic and relational. And finally I made the leap. A leap toward a new vocation and a new approach to faith.
And quite frankly I’m a little lost. But that is the nature of this life journey. I’m trying to learn how to live with tension and a lack of understanding… with humility. I’m not very good at it.
Father, let my eyes rest on your goodness and love while I can see. Teach me how to thank you for spiritual realities. I ask you for the blessing of peace. Amen.
